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[30 Jul 2007|05:22pm] |
So, I figure I should update more often.
We have no air conditioning anymore. The thing broke, but I think my dad might've not paid for it. We're having some money issues. And since we're having these issues we are getting another housemate. We already have one, Mia. She's quite nice and has an all white cat, that seems to like me~ Naomi is going to be moving into my dads room, and where is my dad going to sleep? He's building a wall right now and he's making ME help him. Sick, weak me. xD
It's been absolutly horrible, weather-wise, here. Hot, humid, rainy, but that hot nasty rain that doesnt cool you off. I've taken cold showers/baths. I'll take at least 3 a day, but at least I'm clean :D
- - - - Internet went out - - - -
I stole the fan from my bathroom and it's right next to me. Sweet little thing~
OH! I'm 18 now!
And I got $150 for my birthday, spend 75 of it already and I'm thinking of buying this cute, ruffle/plaid jacket for the fall. It's a custom fit too, so it'll look perfect. I'm not 100% on getting it though.
I'm still having problems with Dimitri, and Hector. My feelings for both of them are quite strong, but I guess what I'll do is keep Dimitri for as long as I can, because I do love him, and if Hector and I were meant to get together, then it'll happen eventually.
Gaia still has complete control over my life, and I'm about to go back to it now xD
goobai~
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[21 Jul 2007|08:58pm] |
He's talking to me
everything is fine
He was on a KwonHo streak.
I'm in a really good mood.
Really fucking good.
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[21 Jul 2007|12:16am] |
I'm watching Pulp Fiction
and craving coke in the worst way possible.
I've been friends with a guy, Hector, since I was 13. He was 18 when I met him and well, even though the age difference we were extremely attracted to each other. Nothing happened between us, since he was so scared about the age thing, and we've been friends to this day. That attraction never went away, but nothing ever happened. He recently broke up with his girlfriend of a year and now he wants to be with me. He jokes about it and everything, but I know he wants to be with me.
I'm with Dimitri, as you all know, and he hasn't spoken to me in two days. He left my house at 3:30 am two days ago with no reason and silence. I've IMed him a few times and no answer. (this does have something to do with Hector) I love Dimitri and the thought of not being with him breaks my fucking soul. But him not talking to me pisses me off and I do stupid things when I'm pissed.
Hector wants to hang out. We haven't seen each other for almost 4 years. He says he needs me to comfort him, and that he just needs to see me. I know that if I go see him he'll try to do something and I'll let him. That's just how I am, even though I LOVE Dimitri.
Problem?
I'm breaking hectors heart by not seeing him, but I'll break my heart if I see him. I care about Hector, I care about myself, and I care about Dimitri.
Do I see him and not break his heart, or do I hurt a friend I've had for 5 years to keep my heart in tact?
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[14 Jul 2007|11:06pm] |
I think I've finally gotten my inspiration back for this thing xD
Gaia Online has been eating my life. Seriously.
I never do anything else, but the past few days have been different. I've been drawing, cleaning, working out, rearranging my room (which is 100 times better now xD)
SQUID MAN
He's based off of my gaia avitar. And it's not colored, or anything so it's a bit sucky. I have a bit of a problem with coloring though. I've never been good at it, so if you want to color it go ahead~! I'd like to see it <3
It's a new style I'm trying out, and I think it fits me. I am quite pleased!
Anyway enough about drawing.
I'm supposed to be job hunting, but I haven't had the will power to leave the house. I think -
my dad is an asshole and he's making me clean the kitchen before he 'explodes' cause he has to too much shit to do. When in reality he's making himself the victim. Fucking nigger cunt. (And no, I am not using nigger in the sense of the race. Nigger also means 'mistake')
- I'm gonna be able to soon. I didn't mean that about my dad. I love him.
My birthday is in 10 days. July 25th. I'll be 18 and able to buy my own god damn smokes, which is very exciting.
sidenote:
I love the song 1, 2, 3 by Camille but I can't find a download anywhere. FAIL.
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[14 Jul 2007|08:14pm] |
i think im going to bleach my hair and then dump 5 random colors all over it.
Stripes ware gonna be fun
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[13 Jul 2007|02:13am] |
I really have no inspiration for this anymore. . .
nothing happens to me XD
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[06 Jul 2007|01:52am] |
I'm back from a week away from home.
I met my boyfriends best friend, Hira, for the second time. He's awesome.
I dont feel like updating
and it might be time for a username change~
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[02 Jul 2007|01:47am] |
He wont want me when I tell him. I ruin everything.
EVERYTHING POSSIBLE. gone. as soon as i touch it
We didn't do anything, but I ment to. I just couldnt do it,lying in his arms just didnt feel right. We didn't fit. I kept trying to tell myself this is what I wanted, this felt right, I should be doing this
update later
computer is being watching
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[02 Jul 2007|12:35am] |
I can't cheat on my boyfriend
I just can't
I tried
I could do it before
But
I can't
And just touching the guy that wants me is making me sick to my stomach
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[11 Jun 2007|11:10pm] |
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Last day of school is tomorrow. I'm not really excited.
But, what I am excited about is
I'M GETTING A DREAM OF DOLL DOLL!!!!!
Ducan
He's my graduation/birthday present. I still havent finalized things with my mom, but I'm pretty sure she's going to do it~
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[08 Jun 2007|11:46am] |
heeey
sorry i havent updated in for fucking ever. Life hasn't been too exciting. . . let's see when did I last update??? Right. Ok a lot has actually happened. So I lied before :X
Dimitri and I are still together and things are going fine. I'm not bored anymore or anything like that and we're actually coming up on 7 months~! We still haven't said I love you but yea, I think it'll happen soon. He comes over here a lot more now, and so we've been having some fun times in manhattan. lol.
My mom finally moved out and I'm in my new room which is fucking huge and amazing~~~ I finally have places to put things!!! I dont feel cramped anymore and my room is finally clean. Surprisingly thats helped me with school too
Speaking of school, I graduate on the 27th. I'll finally be done with high school, after 4 long fucking years! I'm still looking for a job, but I think once I'm done with school I wont be so busy and I'll be able to actually look for a job :X
Uhm. . . you guys should IM me sometime. I get bored easily online and I like talking to people
my aim is : hellomonsters
my msn is : kingrage@hellokitty.com
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[13 May 2007|10:39pm] |
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Oh boy.
Bad, bad, bad.
I'm getting bored with me and Dimitri's relationship. I love him and all, but everything with us is predictable. I go to his house, we have sex, he plays on the computer, asks me to give him a massage, more sex, sleep, wake up, more sex, he plays on his computer, I watch tv, we snuggle for a little, sex, sleep.
I need something different. I need to go somewhere else. See more people, have more of a life. I want him in my life, but I need more variety.
I don't feel like I can talk to him about important things like this.
I'm getting upset.
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[10 May 2007|11:54pm] |
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New, simple layout.
I need something simple right now.
I've really let my eating get out of control and I feel fatter than fat. So fat I don't want Dimitri to touch me, or anything.
Speaking of Dimitri, I feel bad. There's this guy, who's friends with Shelley, named Justin. Justin is. . . hotter than hot. I was all flirty with him today, which is bad, since I only have a boyfriend.
Justin --> http://a636.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/23/l_30e884731def180a4ca0bec90a01ea23.jpg
I think he has a girlfriend, so. . . yea.
I'm gonna go to bed now.
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[09 May 2007|07:54pm] |
Fucking haters. Wow.
I love how bitches and hoes always want to start shit for no fucking reason. They shouldn't be that full of themselves. Vaginas like wizard sleeves. Skeet Skeet Baby~
Just a note for those who feel the need to say/do stupid shit cause they want to assume I was saying something to them in a mean kinda way.
You aren't that great, faggot. Fucking flabby cougar.
ANYWAY.
I'm done.
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[05 May 2007|10:11pm] |
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I got my tongue pierced yesterday. It's kind of really hurting, but it's only the second day. So I don't really expect it to be feeling fine. I've been drooling so much so I'm sitting here with a papertowl stuck under mmy tongue
Another thing, if people have a problem with me they should say it to my face, instead of saying it to other people. It fucking pisses me off especially when what they claim I was doing I didn't do. I mean, come on, grow a fucking pair of balls.
Dimitri is a little. . . upset because I didn't go to his house this weekend. I miss him and I wish I had gone now, but I want my tongue to be better before I go there.
I'm going to bed soon.
And, a new layout it up~
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[02 May 2007|09:05pm] |
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Today was. . . odd.
I got to school pretty much on time and guess what I find out, I got a 95% on a test in the class I was failing. Before that I had gotten an 80% on a another test, so I shouldn't be failing that class anymore~!
I was thinking for a few weeks that I might be pregnant. I bought a test, took it and I'm not. I almost wanted to be, but it's good that I'm not. My best friend Judith was all crying and everything and I felt so bad cause she was pregnant and had a miscarriage. She was ready for a child, but her body wasn't. She's going to wait a while till she tries again, though. I love tha girl.
I finally get paid tomorrow and I'm getting my tongue pierced friday. I'm so excited~! Heather is coming with me and getting hers done also. She's never gotten a piercing with a needle (she had 3 ears, but they were all done when she was younger and with a gun). She's really freaking out, but she'll be fine.
I want to change my layout again. I think I'll go do that on friday or something.
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[30 Apr 2007|08:20pm] |
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Brownies are my fucking life.
Even though I shouldn't be eating them cause chocolate upsets my stomach.
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Dimitri came over after school today and we watched the grudge 2, which is a horrible movie. Don't watch it. Ever. And then of course we had sex. Really fast, but very good sex.
Did any of you know that it's wedding week? maybe that's why I've been wanting to get married so much lately?
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[30 Apr 2007|02:11am] |
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I found images that I thought were nice enough for a layout. I was getting a little tired of super bright, ouch my eyes are burning, colors. So I thought some pink, browns and greens would be nice~
I still need to work on my friends layout though. . . I don't like the whole white and black generator crap. I'll do that tomorrow though, it's a bit too late now. OH! I also changed my journal from friends only to public~ If I don't like it I'll be changing it back of course.
I spent the weekend at dimitri's (of course). I had some balls and I was going to say the big words and all, but I kind of choked up everytime, or he interupted me. But he was soo cute this weekend. He combed my hair after my shower and was all snuggly. I got real lucky with this one.
While I was making this layout I realized that I still have NO outfit for prom. I don't have to pay for it, cause I got a 98 on a test in school and my mom was willing to pay. I want to get a really nice black underbust corset, and some big clompy platform boots~ And then I'll wear a nice white button down shirt under the corset, and some black skinny jeans or something. Hopefully I'll have my hair dyed and done by then. I still don't know how I'm going to cut it. . . or if I want to pay for the cut or not.
Speaking of money, I should be getting paid this friday. I'm getting either a regular tongue piercing or a tongue web. . . you know the little membrane that kind of holds your tongue down :X I love those. I should be getting around 170 or 140 but my mom is making me put $50 into saving, which is a pretty good idea.
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I'm tired, I think it's bed time.
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he hates me.
I'm going away.
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